Leaving evidence of my existence is the true reason I write. It is why we all write. For what other purpose would I chronical my life for the world to see? Even in private our desire lives that some day our hidden passions may be uncovered.
In our digital universe are millions of people desperately endeavoring to leave evidence of their individual existence -- their uniqueness. We create art so that remenants of ourselves will remain for our decendants.
We are a race of explorers fueled by the desire to leave our mark above all else; a mark that we are not unimportant; a mark that we are not insignifcant; a mark that, all told, will speak to the true nature of our individual spirit.
We are frustrated at our daily endeavors because we are unsatisfied at the meaninglessness of our daily routine. What does it mean if we make someone else a dollar? We thrive for social contact so that we might leave our mark on others. So that we will not remain unimportant, without impact.
Could our worst fear be that of the castaway on a desert island? That we would be deprived our ability to create anew? What is the enjoyment of life if it does not leave a permenant record? How can we progress if no one ever moves us forward?
But our desire to create is our curse because we confuse it with the need to gain possessions. We say, "How can my mark be left if my life ends without artifacts?" So we work to acquire possessions, failing to make the mark we truly desire to make - a mark that enriches existence, and not just quantifies it. Possessions are artifacts of the most generic design. They are mass produced evidence of our desire to consume, and not create.
We are builders, explorers, creators, patrons, friends, and lovers. If we spend any part of our time not leaving a mark in a way that truly matters, what is its purpose? We may climb many mountains, we may excel in our professions, we may live free from care, but if we do not make a lasting difference then what was the point of our lives? We leave, at the end, with little else to show for it than ash and bone.